Monday, January 23, 2023

Memories of a 90s Childhood

In the mid 90s, I was a young kid growing up in a remote police battalion area. School was 30-minutes-on-an-old-blue-jeep-ride-with-no-traffic-anywhere away. Church was a Sunday only activity. TV was only enjoyable for two hours in the evening when Star Plus rolled out kid-friendly shows, your Disney cartoons or sitcoms like Small Wonder, The Wonder Years, and Doogie Howser M.D. I forget what channel played Timeless Tales on Sundays. It was a world in a bubble, in a time before the internet. There was nothing to do on holidays.

Okay I lie. There were a lot of things to do. We climbed hills and giant water towers. We played house atop a giant replica of a table and chair set. We played The Future on a giant broken weighing machine. We swung around on giant swings. (Okay why did we have so many sets of giant things? Hmm.) We biked around the battalion compound with nothing on us but BB guns, pocket knives, water bottles and, if we were lucky, candies. Sometimes people fed us DIY treats in the form of roselle flowers and sugar in little bamboo containers; that was good then and they remain good memories now. Sometimes we had money for Ruffles chips; these would be Ruffles Lays and then simply Lays later. We ran around playing hide and seek with grasshoppers and the family dog. We messed up our stomachs eating stolen fruits aka unripe figs and passion fruits that grown-ups specifically told us to wait for till they properly ripened . On good days, we cooked random food on empty cans of tinned fish and enjoyed half-cooked vegetables out in the sun.

When there was electricity, we listened to and bloody memorized few audio tapes – Preeti Sagar’s Nursery Rhymes, and choice Mizo audio dramas: Hamlet, Genevieve (which was pronounced Jen-eh-veev by the team; who cared about French names?!), Teantisnery and about four comedy skits by the Mizo comic Thangkura drama party. If by good fortune we had broken video or audio cassette tapes in the house, we unwound and threaded the ribbons all over trees just to get that ghostly melody as the strung magnetic tapes hummed in the wind.

It was on New Year’s Day that the little town bustled and came alive. The air still bristled with Christmas cheer and the festivities really began in full swing, Christmas being largely a Christian affair that non-Christians didn’t fully engage in. (Plus there’s a lot of church during Christmas; not a lot of fun time.) Large, colourful shamianas get set up on the parade ground. A host of carnival activities begin taking shape – cotton candy parlours, tombola tables for grown-ups, a range of games and activities for kids, cheap toys to be won and given away.

The evening prior, we would have all met and waved Old Man Of The Old Year away, hoping he takes with him all our old year issues so we can make a fresh start tomorrow, hence the good feeling on New Year’s Day. [Side note: I say Old Man Of The Old Year in the hopes of making it sound cute but really we just called him Kumhlui i.e. Old Year, and he was a man dressed in dirty rags and we all heaved abuses at him and cheered for him to go away already. No one wanted to play him in later years, saying it was a cursed role. I wonder why.] Father Christmas, however, had apparently hung around for this fete and he came with a sack of little toys wrapped up in shining paper which he distributed to people; sometimes, he threw candy up in the air and we all scrambled for them. In the evening, we feasted communally in traditional Mizo style on large banana leaves.

My family moved around a lot, following dad as he got transferred. But childhood for me will always be cocooned in that little faraway, forgotten era in a tiny campus with airs of either a large village or a small town. Luangmual, Lunglei is no longer like this. I am told it is modern and technological and stuff now. A lot of the places I knew then have been altered. I don’t want to go back. But three years. Three years we were in that place. Considering I never really grew up even with all the years I have accumulated since, it is amazing how three years stretched out and defined a whole childhood for me!

All of this, by the way, being my very roundabout way of saying I am feeling rather nostalgic today.












Wednesday, January 18, 2023

The Infinite Terror that is Folktales

I often find myself thinking the concept terrifying that a Creature-You-Think-Is-Your-Aunt is sucking up your sister’s brains at night and you’re asking her what the noise of slurping was and your sister is crying with pain but the Creature says it was just a mouse scuttling across the floor. Yes, that’s the exact same sound as knocking back someone’s brain.

Folktales are often unapologetically horrifying.

Sociology says that folktales are mediums of orally enforcing societal laws. Customs. Traditions. If you don’t want to be either one of the sisters in that dreadful tale, you should listen to your mother tell you which path to go. Also possibly look for family resemblances.

But I don’t know. The sisters in the above tale did follow their mother’s instructions. But the Creature just decided to waylay them anyway. Well, what else is a cannibal to do, right? I say ‘cannibal’ and it is disturbing that a cannibal should unassumingly enter the world of children’s stories but the real messed up part is that the creature does not even seem to be human. So… maybe not “technically” a cannibal if she’s not the same manner of being as the sisters. But the bigger question arises here: how do you figure that two human girls un-problematically accept a strange Creature as their aunt when clearly they are human and she – this brain-sucking creature – is not? Are non-human relatives that common?

But that is the craziness that is the world of folktales. You very un-problematically accept things that go far beyond the rules of nature: the uncomplicated manner in which a human child would think a Forest Creature and she are family relations, the easy way you welcome travel between the moon and earth via a ladder or a tall tree/bamboo, the simple manner you assume proper conversations happen between entirely different species, the forthright manner you accept that a man could be friends with a tiger…

And bear in mind: in tribal folktales, these are not anthropomorphized beings. No. They’re out and out undiluted versions of their own realities in our world. The moon is still the moon; still as far, still as distant. A shrimp is still a shrimp as a tiger is still a tiger as a goblin is still a goblin as a human is still a human. And these different species apparently coexist in this strange world that is so fluid that a human could be slave to a cat, goblins (or nymphs?) and humans regularly intermarry, the thumb of a deceased could become a bird and speak in words understandable to a human, skeletons in a grave could move at the sound of melodies…

In addition, apart from not being anthropomorphized, these beings do not even seem to conform to human moralities or sensibilities. The goblins would still operate as they do in their – I imagine – spectral world. Your little witness-to-murder thumb bird is still a thumb as it is a bird. (How does that even work?)

Not to mention that you may converse all you like with your tiger best friend but he is still a tiger and it does not matter how close you are, your tiger friend would still kill and eat your family. Or you, actually, if it comes to a fight. To be fair, you would also still eat the shrimp or the bird that you talk to. Because of course you do.

So I have to wonder what the purpose to these stories is. Metaphors are very well and fine. I enjoy good metaphors and immensely appreciate clever puns. Even Jesus taught in parables. But folktales fascinate me in ways other stories often do not. The parameters that weave fiction around reality in the construction of folktales are riveting because of how extremely fluid they are in parts and suddenly how conforming too!

I consider myself a structural-functionalist. I always think things and ideas have their places in society – good or bad – otherwise they’d be obsolete and replaced.

Folktales… big time head-scratchers!! Perhaps art? Art is as you do. Art is as special as you think. Art is an abstraction of society through an artist’s lens. As a form of art, what are folktales? A representation of society, only exaggerated for drama by the storyteller? Very possible. Or maybe more? Maybe I should rethink this again. It sounds promising.









Friday, January 6, 2023

Mizoram


The third best thing about Mizoram is how intensely beautiful the scenery is. It is not ideal for a great number of things – the road, for example. Travelling is a pain because sometimes you see your destination straight ahead but it will take you an hour to reach it because you have to go round the fat portions of a hill, or two – or three! – to get there. Anyone who has ever travelled to Siaha from Lawngtlai will testify – three hours to travel 10kms as the crow flies; not a funny joke.

Building on this, it is not ideal for development. Anywhere that roads aren’t ideal cannot presume to have it easy with development projects. It is not ideal for fun escapades either, especially when monsoon lasts and lasts until the earth is pregnant with rainwater and always threatening to leak water and heavy chunks of clay all over the roads for close to a majority of the year. It is definitely not ideal for agriculture and for nearly half the year, the hills look like they’ve been through hellfire; probably not that far off, to be honest. Huge scars left behind bald hills and black soot raining down every March? Magnificent blemish on the beauty of the hills.

But on the whole, beautiful scenery. It soothes the soul to see green hills rolling over each other. Even cliffs are gorgeous, except you do not overmuch want to be close to them or god forbid, hanging off of them. It is lovely to see the hills change colour as they grow more distant from you – different shades of green that taper off to blue until they merge with the blue of the horizon or stopped by fluffy white clouds in impossibly blue skies. Any walk in the woods is blessed by the sounds of the forest and the melodies of the birds, the insects, the animals, the water and the wind. Just be careful not to walk into a snake or leeches and you’re golden.

Full moon nights are magical. I’ve watched the moon burn bright orange one October night in 2010 driving back from Lunglei to Aizawl. You should not experiment with this probably, but we could travel by moonlight, which is to say even with our headlights switched off, we could see the earth illuminated in the golden glow of the October full moon. I’ve sat outside in cold December nights in Champhai counting stars and admiring the only three heavenly objects I can identify – Orion’s Belt, Sirius and Betelgeuse.

Sunsets are majestic; I’ve stopped my engines on my evening drives multiple times just to watch the explosion of colour on the sky behind black hills. It is a spiritual experience, like you are observing the face of the Creator in front of you.

Of course, in the age of the curated happiness of social media – your Instagrams, Facebooks and WhatsApps – people would often care more about Digital Likes than basking in the glory of the Now. Phones are whipped out at every glorious moment, in the hopes of capturing happiness which inspirational quotes have already taught us was like trying to capture a butterfly in flight; rest and let the butterfly come to you, right? But I’ve noticed sceneries are notoriously hard to capture in all their magnificence. Ultimately, you are subjected to tons of pictures on your Wall of unfocused and confused angles of the sky, flowers, hills, what-have-you. Nature photography is a precise, artsy skill; not possessed by many.

In fact, I’d even suggest this is akin to amazing singers singing songs and making it look so easy that everybody starts thinking they could also do it and then suddenly, cacophony all around! I knew this for a fact when back in November 2022, Michael Learns To Rock came to play in Aizawl and thankfully, my DC and SDO(S) smiled indulgently and said I could go see them and gave me a bunch of official Aizawl errands to run while I was home. I was in the crowd that night, “belting” out their songs along with them, which is to say I was screaming the lyrics out instead of matching the tune because obviously, I am not the best singer in Aizawl. Not even in my family, if I’m honest. But Jascha Richter on stage could make the notes seem so effortless. Incredible. In any case, it was alright because although my throat was hoarse from the singing and the sore throat that I was deliberately ignoring, and although I skinned my knees because I fell down and had a shiny bruise as a souvenir for the night, I sang with MLTR and Jascha Richter liked my IG post the following day. Any chance to tell this story. Carefully curated happiness indeed!

Nature aside, what is wonderful about Mizoram is the sense of society and belongingness, however real or pretend it may be. It is enough that the society is big in Mizoram. There is a lot to be said about it but as one of my JNU seniors put it, there is no other society I’d rather die in than the Mizo one. I suppose that makes Community the second best thing about Mizoram.

I cannot say for any other group outside of my own, but for the people inside this group, Mizoram and the Mizo community is amazing. Socialism is alive in Mizoram even when as a political theory it is rejected by many in favour of the more shiny ones like Capitalism. Not all facets of Socialism, obviously, but the idea of equality and egalitarianism, very definitely, even when it is denied its name. It is true that unfettered equality/egalitarianism is impossible to maintain, or truly, not to be actively desired, but an element of it is certainly to be applauded.

It is often said that the real measure of bonds are found in trying times – it is not the people who make it to your celebratory days; it is the people who are there when your world is crumbling down. Mizoram and Mizo society have their flaws and their extreme shortcomings, but in our deepest moments of grief, there is nothing like people putting aside their own chores and coming to grief with you, the community making arrangements for you that are difficult for you when you’re shrouded in loss and feeling disoriented; and friends, family and neighbours acting as solid anchors when you’re floundering in the sea of sorrow. All this, despite who you are as a person. Because the society was always bigger than the sum of its parts.

Society being what it is and we being who we are, a valid question that often arise is how much is too much? How much of society do we want or need in our lives? How far should society dictate our lives? Death is very final and hence cannot be the only measure of a society. It is indeed true that hard times test you and your relationships, but it is also equally true that many people will find it easier to commiserate with you than to celebrate with you wholeheartedly. Every time there is an accident, a mob arises that is often uncontrollable, in a matter of seemingly seconds, like something out of a Stephen King story. People with a morbid fascination for the gruesome, indulging in tragedy porn. That aside, even when no gore is involved, how often have we felt like people have been waiting for us to make even a single mistake? Not that alien a feeling, is it? So in the grand scheme of things, how much society is too much society?

In the winter of 2022, a man unfortunately drowned in Keilungliah dam in Champhai at around 1:30 in the afternoon. By 3PM, the place was filled with spectators. It wouldn’t be farfetched to assume that 99% of those gathered could not swim. Yet there they were, even as the evening wore on into the night, curiously hanging around the 40-50 feet deep body of water, excitedly chattering away, from gossip and the cold. Shit, if anyone of them fell in, there’d be multiple casualties and possibly even more loss of life. When I asked the spectators to go home for the night and not cause more troubles for police, rescue ops, divers and the society leaders, one man snapped at me intoning that that was inadvisable because those gathered there were volunteers and if we refused them their place here, we would kill the spirit of altruism in the soul of the Mizo – the sacred tlawmngaihna – and we’d not find any more volunteers later on in other incidents. I cannot say I was right and he was wrong, but as a magistrate and a sociologist, but more importantly, the hoper of far flung hopes and dreamer of impossibly optimistic dreams, I replied that Mizo tlawmngaihna was not so fragile that it would die if a government-cum-non-government-organisation’s Search & Rescue op that required specialization (in this case, swimming and in particular, diving) would request they gave them space. Indeed, this graceful stepping back is a lesson in tlawmngaihna we need to learn in the society; sometimes, our good hearts and our curious heads really do hamper certain jobs – controlling fire outbreaks, for example, is sometimes made difficult by spectators jamming up traffic or using up water; it’s weird.

People often make the mistake of looking at society through myopic lenses. You cannot pick and choose one ideal standard to measure anything in its entirety, leave alone an entity as great as a society. You have to try to look at the Big Picture or succumb to inevitable toxic environments myopic, narrow thinking leads to. Mizoram is wonderful in many ways, it is sorely lacking in others; so are the Mizo. So is everybody else, too. Besides, Mizoram is very young. Someone born in the 80s went through a very dramatic time when a phone was a solid green box in the living room to Now where your watch can look for your phone! And why would it do that? Because the world is in your phone, just a click away. Doctors today can implant plastic in your eyes to help cure your myopia; we can allow for some leeway in the way we look at Mizoram and the Mizo and try to be less myopic. If Mizoram has a lot to learn, let her learn. In about a century, she has undergone such changes as to witness head-hunting rituals to technology at her fingertips!

Which brings me to the best thing about Mizoram which obviously is that it attained statehood in 1987 which is the same year I was born which makes Mizoram as old as I am which is cool.









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